Friday, July 04, 2008
@5:14 PM
I guess as Christians, i.e. the salt and light of this world, we always innately want to shine for Jesus and be a living example of the gospel. To me, that is the way I want to share the gospel to my colleagues and friends: not to verbally share it 1st, but to use the way I communicate and carry myself to show that Jesus lives in me. That there is a different spirit in me, yet stay relevant and not overtly perfect and spiritual.
Yet, there are times we falter and our emotions get the better of us. Pst Mike shared with us before that emotions are signals of what goes on in our heart. It's always a good thing to have your love tank refilled daily to prep one for the challenges of tomorrow, but sometimes, that is not as possible in its entity coz of the magnitude of it all. Sometimes, in our quest to want to stand up for the truth, to justify that conviction that we live by, to be a non-compromising person; we do take things a little too hard.
When things go wrong, we put so much effort to want to realign it, but turn around and realise that hey, why is it that I'm the only one trying to fix this? Doesn't this matter at all to you? How can you take it so lightly? Sometimes, we become so much a fighter for the truth that we feel more than the absense of physical humanity around us, it seems too to register that even God is not in this with us.
I've been led to wonder why is it that Jesus was able to walk through so much humiliation and yet not react, and discovered that the reason lies in Him knowing that it was something He had to go through, so there was no point fighting or resisting it. There was always a lesson to be learnt through it, and so, the important question is 'what can I take from this?'. I guess Jesus kept His eyes on the Father: He knew God was His advocate, that God sees the big picture and will make all things work together for the good for those who love Him, in the end. (And this verse is so personal to me, its my verse of the year that will dictate my life for 2008: read late Dec or early Jan's entry).
Yes, as much as we lose sight that the battle is ours to fight with God and not alone, it takes a gentle spirit to incline towards the whisper of the Holy Spirit and listen for what lies beneath. Sometimes we want to stand up for the truth so much, we want to be armed and clad for battle whereever we go; that we forget the silent voice that is always in the race with us.
It's never meant for us to walk alone.